Sad depression im sorry quotes skin#

My words come from a place of hopelessness and from an illness that sincerely believes that I am both a burden and a liability to you. I’m sorry if I may frighten you when I talk openly and honestly of suicide and wanting to end my pain. I’m sorry if I have hurt your feelings or made you feel as though your sentiments aren’t as important as mine but it is just too overwhelming for me much of the time. My own darkness often consumes me to the point that I am no longer aware of my surroundings and feel numb to the world around me. I’m sorry if I have neglected you during your own sadness and pain or have been unable to be “present” (both literally and figuratively) to celebrate in your happiness or success. Please know that my heart detects your genuine intentions and is truly disheartened and sorry. I’m sorry if I make you feel that your efforts are unwelcome or undesired when you have tried to send me positive energy and encouraging reinforcements and all I can do is allow my negative self-talk to intervene once again. I’m sorry if you felt as though I somehow intentionally pushed you away or made you feel as though I no longer needed you because you were unable to help me so out of frustration you subtly and indiscreetly removed yourself from my life the phone calls, the texts, the invitations, one by one slowly began to fade away. My intent has never been to maliciously set out to hurt these countless individuals but my illness seems to have a mind of its own and for this I am truly sorry. My illness has not just left an enormous impact on my life but it has also left a significant impact on the lives of so many countless others. I have created an endless list in my mind as to why I always feel the need to apologize for my illness, a list which I have created out of guilt, remorse, regret and the belief that I am a colossal burden to everyone in my life and for this I am truly sorry. So you see, my need to incessantly apologize seems pretty darn relevant, right? Well if there is one thing I know for sure it’s that my illness most definitely would agree. It may also be used when someone is unable to do something or attend an invited event. An apology is an expression of regret or an acknowledgement of an offense or error. Lately I feel like maybe I should be wearing a sign around my neck that reads “I’m Sorry” because my illness has made me feel like I am constantly doing something wrong each and every day and I seem to be apologizing endlessly for my actions or words. I am sorry.I’M TRULY SORRY, FROM MY DEPRESSION & ANXIETY I mumble it as I explain that the verbal and emotional abuse from my bullies still affect my everyday life. I sob it out as I tell you I want to be alone because memories are threatening to destroy me and I wish I was fully healed. I tell you it through clenched teeth as I leave early because I am overwhelmed with the number of people closing in on me. I text you those three words when I feel insecure about the way our last conversation ended. I get defensive as I say it on the days where you notice my laugh is less frequent, less loud than it usually is.

I slur those three words when I drink too much liquor and you have to drive me home. I cry it out in frustration when depression and anxiety tell me I need to apologize profusely, to the point where you wonder if I am attempting to apologize for simply existing. I scream it when depression uses my energy to fuel his fire.

Sad depression im sorry quotes skin#

I wince as I say it, while depression has his claws sunk in my skin deep enough to strike bone. I whisper it between sobs when depression murmurs in my ear that I am a waste of space. I yell it when anxiety lights a fire that boils my blood and I lash out. I force myself to use what little air I have left to say it as anxiety wraps her fingers around my throat and squeezes. I say it again when anxiety yells I did the wrong thing and I need to make up for it.